So, lately I have been horribly bored, and I just have not been able to figure out what to do with myself. Ever since I quite smoking last February, I have felt a bit lost, and totally miserable about things. I have gained weight, no matter how much I have tried to diet and watch what I eat. I actually weigh more now than I ever did before in my life, even when pregnant. It almost seems like I have not let myself enjoy anything since I quit smoking, that I have been serving some type of enforced penance since I have to live without my old buddy, nicotine. Not at all logical, but there you have it!
Last month, I invested in a marvelous home gym, an Inspire MC3. It was a bit pricey, but well worth it. Jordan will be able to use it towards the physical activity portion of his online Phys. Ed. class, and I have started using it just to make myself feel better! But it is nowhere near enough.... Now that my children are teenagers, I find that I have to entertain myself more and them less. It was so gradual that I didn't realize it was happening, they grew up! Now, it occurs to me that they need me far less than they used to, and I am left to my own devices, left to find things to keep me from going crazy or slipping into a deep pool of depressing self-pity, left to find out what it is that I actually enjoy!
So, now that I spent the last several weeks reading "Eat, Pray, Love" and "Julie & Julia", and then this past weekend watching both of the movies, I decided it was time to find something to excite me. I've been a believer in "The Secret", ever since I first read the book, so it is clear that I need something positive to focus on, something interesting to keep my mind stimulated.
So here's my plan - I am going to cook my way around the world! Actually, this means that I would like to cook in nearly every country in the world, but reality dictates that I simply cook from their traditional fare in my own kitchen! I mean, if I am going to be fat, I might as well enjoy what I am eating!
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